is this the last time
2008
Created by jerry's children 12 years ago
Is this the last time I will see my mother
is this the last time I will hold her soft cool bony hand
she sleeps, her mouth open ,head tilted back facing upwards to heaven as if asking to be lifted up and taken away
she looks so old, she is someone else's old person
I never imagined she would be this old
I can't imagine I will be this old
will she know me when she wakes
will she be talking about things that don't exist her eyes sparkling as they always have
I will pretend to understand her and
give her answers that don't exist she is satisfied with my answers as she moves on to another thought,
she has many
this isn't so bad
or when she wakes will she be angry
denying that anything is wrong with her
denying the need for help and angry about how help is given to her
nothing I say will make a difference
I don't know which is worse
I wish she could fight to stay alive
not fight the people that are trying to keep her alive
When will be the last time, when will be the last breath
when will she find peace
it is coming……….